Monday, February 11, 2008

Escape from 'stuckness'

'Midway on our life's journey, I found myself in a dark wood', begins the Divine Comedy by Dante.
Midway through my life's journey, I found myself stuck.  It seemed there was no way out, I couldn't see in any direction, just high walls all around me and all the trails I went down ended in cul de sacs.  Have you ever had that trapped feeling?  I could hardly speak it was so intense.  In desperation to express it, but unable to verbalise it, I sat down with a large paper and pastels and just drew.  What appeared on the paper out of no clear intention, was a maze of mazes, with no beginning and no end, lots of mazes all connected to each other, and in the tunnels were emotions such as hopelessness, fear and anger.  It was an image of my soul.  Although confronting, it was such a relief to see on paper visually what I was experiencing.  Somehow it affirmed my "stuckness", and eased my panic. I could look at the problem objectively now it was outside of myself and I could see it.  Clearly there was no obvious escape in my mind.  Over the next week or two I went on an internal journey of finding a way out of the maze..and I eventually found a way out - up! 

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